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Friday, June 29, 2012

Baby Cailin 1 week old!

I cannot believe it has been over a week since you were born! I can barely remember life before you came into this world.

The first two full days of your life were in the hospital with me. We were happy to bring you home on Wednesday, right on time! The nurses were very helpful at the hospital and they LOVED you! Every shift change a nurse would come into my room and see you and say "you're her mom? We love her in the nursery!"

Your birth was scary but both of us made it through!

You were left with a nasty head wound from the vacuum. There was a ball of fluid from where they attached the vacuum to your head. It looked pretty rough and I wouldn't let many people hold you because it w as so sore but luckily the fluid was gone in 4-5 days!

Your first visitors were Grandma and my dad Pops Harris! Haha! They came the day you were born! I was very sore and in a lot of pain until later in the afternoon so Aaron and Kristine came for a little and both adored you!

Tuesday we had lots more visitors: Dana, Caitlin, Diane, Rita, Phoenix, Rhonda and Mike. Averil and her cutie Hudson also came to visit!

Wednesday we went home and Kathy and little Nate came! Auntie Kathy thought you were the cutest little girl ever! She loves holding and cuddling you!

You had your first dr appointment Friday and it went well! You gained an ounce from your hospital release.

Your sleeping pattern is whack! But so is every newborns! You sleep a lot but wake up a lot to eat too.

One thing I have learned is that breast feeding is hard. It's physically demanding on the mom and often frustrating for both of us. You are much better at it now and we are weening you slowly off of the 4 ounces of formula we had to supplement until my milk came in.

The cats have no idea what your deal is and spent several days in my closet. I finally locked then out and they come up to smell you once in a while. Hopefully you will be best friends soon!

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Cailin Bonnie!!!

She's here! She's FINALLY here!!!

Cailin Bonnie entered the world on June 18 at 8:50 am. She was 8lbs 14oz and 22 inches long!

Here is her amazing birth story! (with some gory details, the weak need not read on).

So I went to the doctor last week and she has checked my cervix and I was at 2cm and 75% effaced. No big deal, but it was enough reassurance for me that I needed to get my labor going!

Wednesday at work I lost my mucus plug (yuck!) during 3rd period and toughed out the rest of the day with some cramps and mild contractions. I contacted the HR person and she said I had enough time off to take the remaining 3.5 days off. So I did! Thursday and Friday passed and I did everything possible to get labor started! Cumin tea, pineapple, walking, etc. wink! ;) and still nothing.

Friday I had a regular appointment with my OB and they did a BPP and NST on the baby since my due date was fast approaching and everything was fine! She had a perfect amount of amniotic fluid! My blood pressure was a bit high for the first time so she scheduled a visit for Monday to recheck my bp and scheduled an appointment for my regular visit for Wednesday where we would talk induction. (clearly she thought baby M was NOT on her way out and neither did I!) Due to the slightly elevated bp she told me to take it easy over the weekend and not do anything too strenuous.

Saturday I sat around, SO boring! Later when it was near bedtime I started having some really mild contractions. I didn't think anything of them since I could barely feel them.

Sunday morning came and I was having the same contractions. They were not painful and I could even ignore them even though they were 20 minutes apart. I decided I wanted to jump start things and me and Dan decided to take a looooooong walk. We went to Fresh Pond in Cambridge and walked the entire thing. My contractions started coming every 10 minutes or so but were still very mild.

We got home and Dan left to take a short ride on his motorcycle. 10 Minutes after he left I was walking around the house and felt a little tiny trickle. I checked, nothing. I sat down and watched a little tv and maybe 10 minutes after that I decided I wanted to get dinner ready. I got up walked to the kitchen and felt another trickle then a bit of a gush. Bingo. I KNEW my water broke! I went to the bathroom and checked and my panty liner and pants were soaked with clear fluid. Time to call the dr!!!

I called the office and they had the on-call dr call me back, and I was relieved to find out that it was my OB who was on call!!! She asked about the contractions and more about my water breaking and she said come on in to L&D! I called Dan and told him to come back asap since I thought my water had broken and that I had already called the dr and that they had told me to come in. He was only 10 minutes away so I packed the rest of my bag and organized the rest of the stuff that we might need. By the time I was finishing up, Dan walked through the door and we were on our way!

I walked up to the 5th floor at Mt. Auburn and was created by a nurse who showed me to a little exam room. They asked some questions and about half an hour later my OB came in and said she asked some more questions. They had 3 possible tests to run to determine if my wear had indeed broken. The first was a ph test: negative. The second much more invasive test involved taking a fluid sample from inside my cervix and looking at it on a slide under a microscope. Again: negative. At this point I was so frustrated because even though my dr said it is really common to leak urine, I KNEW that was not the case! The third test involved the dr twirling a really long q-tip in my cervix for one solid minute. Fun. She took that sample and came back 10 minutes later and it was positive!! I think at that point I was more happy to hear that I did not pee myself than to hear that I was in labor!! They then checked my cervix and I was still 2cm and about 80% effaced.

The dr suggested starting pitocin since I was already having mild contractions. We were showed to a l&d room and I was hooked up to a monitor and an IV. I got fluids to start then came the pitocin, dun dun dun!! It was NOT bad at all. I started that around 9pm, and my contractions immediately got worse but were tolerable. Around 1am the real pain set in and I asked for some pain meds. My dr, being amazing, said I could get the epidural if I wanted. Obviously I said yes! Within a half an hour or less, anesthesia came and put the epidural in. Within 30 minutes I was pain free. The idea was for me to get some sleep, but that didn't really work. They checked my cervix again and I was 4 cm dilated and 100% effaced at that point. I "slept" until around 7 when the new nurses came in. They told me to let them know when I felt pressure. About 30 minutes later I really just wanted to see what my progress was, and I thought I was feeling a little bit of pressure so I called them back in. They checked me and I was ready to go! WHAT?!?!? I was shocked, and Dan was still resting on the couch next to me when they came in thinking that nothing was going to be happening. He got up from the couch, practically in shock, and the nurse started coaching me to push. So at 7:45 am I started the pushing process.

Nurses came in and out during this time and had me pushing laying on my left side, then on my right, then on my back. Baby's head was coming down slowly. Suddenly they said to go get the dr. My OB was tied up in another delivery. It was around 8:30 when Dr. Cook came in. There were so many deliveries happening and she was literally putting her scrubs on when the nurses ran and got her.

She came in and coached me to push a few times. Baby was having trouble crowning and she noticed that her heart rate was dropping after each contraction. It was becoming a dangerous situation and Dr. Cook told me I either needed an emergency c-section if they tried the vacuum and it failed. AT this point I began crying. I was so scared something was wrong with precious M and I might need a c section.

Something went wrong with my epidural because I literally felt everything from here on out. She got the vacuum and put it inside. I have no idea how many times she tried getting her out but it was painful! I needed an episiotomy because of the vacuum and I felt every piercing bit of that. She instructed me to push some more and baby was making her way out. Finally they got her head out. She noticed that the cord was wrapped so tight around her neck that it was cutting off her circulation and made the rest of the cord so short she couldn't crown. She pulled her from me and then her right shoulder got stuck on my pelvis. Dr. Cook pushed her halfway back inside me and yanked her out. She was quickly rushed over to the waiting neonatal team over by the bassinet. She was not crying. I asked if she was ok and why she wasn't crying. I heard three little slaps and then she finally let out a few good cries! THANK GOD!! I was too busy asking about the baby to notice that I was hemorrhaging. Dr. Cook quickly got the situation under control. One of my nurses who was coaching me to push came to my side and explained everything to me. Dan went over to make sure she was ok, and they were in such a rush that one of the doctors cut the cord and forgot to ask Dan. He wasn't too upset because he knew the situation was serious. The nurse said she was going to be ok but they had to check to see if she had any broken bones and that her right arm was ok since she had to be ripped out of my uterus.

In a few minutes they announced that she was born at 8:50 am and that she was a healthy 8lbs 14oz! They brought her to me so we could have some skin to skin contact while Dr. Cook repaired all the damage that was done during delivery. She was so nice and reassuring. She had anesthesia re-do my epidural, gave me tons of anesthetic, and offered to give me a heavy pain killer, which I declined because I didn't want to be messed up all day.



It took about 45 minutes to stitch me up and stop the bleeding. Pretty Cailin and I had some good bonding time . Dr. MacDonald, my OB came and to see what happened and she was in shock! The room looked like Rob Zombie had just filmed a scene from a horror movie in there. There was blood everywhere, even on the dr.'s face and all over her scrubs and gown.

She came up to me and congratulated me and couldn't believe that I had progressed so quickly. Earlier she thought I wouldn't deliver until that night!

Later the nurse came to me and said I was really lucky that Dr. Cook was there because she was very good at dealing with complicated births and mine was as complicated as possible without having a c section.

They took Cailin away to the nursery to be checked out and get a bath. Dan went with her to make sure she was ok. I was still being worked on. The nurses had me get up and walk a little and then I eventually got moved to a postpartum room.

I was beyond exhausted and in lots of pain so we limited the visitors to my Dad, Dan's Mom, and later on in the day Aaron and Kristine came. By that point I was feeling a little better.

The next day we had lots more visitors: Mike and Rhonda, My Dad, Dan's mom, Dan's Dad, Nan and Pa, Averil, Caitlin, Dana, Diane, Rita and Pheonix all stopped by to meet Pretty Cailin! 

More on our hospital stay later, but today we are proud to be at home and doing well!


Friday, June 15, 2012

Prego update

Hopefully baby m will be here soon! Went to dr and got scared about asking for my membranes to be stripped, but who knows, she may have done it anyways... I'm 2cm dilated and 75% effaced. While this looks promising it really doesn't mean much.

Another appointment Monday... Let's cross our fingers I don't make it!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

T-5 days

Tuesday I had my 39 week appointment and we are both doing fine. I had a NST and BPP and both tests showed little M doing perfectly!

Yesterday, at work, I started having contractions and feeling crampy for the 2nd day in a row. After calling my doc, she thought it would be ok if I skipped out on work for the rest of my pregnancy. It is only 4 days of school, one is field day, and the last day is a half day so it didn't really matter. Not to mention grades were already due and I passed those in Monday.

Now its the stupid waiting game. When I was in the office Tuesday my doc told me to come in either Friday or next Tuesday to see her. Originally I made the appointment for Tuesday thinking I would still be working but now I have rescheduled for tomorrow. Why wait?

I know I have been dilating so tomorrow I am going to see if she will strip my membranes. (Membrane stripping is when the doctor separates the amniotic sac from your cervix in hopes of speeding up labor). Its done all the time and I am more than ready to have this baby.

It's Father's day this weekend AND it's my dad's birthday on Tuesday so I will be heading to the mall to pick up some things. I will also be doing as much cleaning as possible since I'm home now. I'm not sure I would call it nesting...just intense cleaning since I haven't felt like doing much of anything lately when I get home from work, but now since I have the time I might as well!!!

Worst case scenario baby M will be here in 15 days MAXIMUM!!! I really hope sooner!!!!!

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

39 weeks

Yup Im still pregnant. 39 weeks today. My dr appointment went well...they did a BPP and baby's doing great! She has an average amount of amniotic fluid and is DEFINITELY head down. My next OB appointment is on my due date. Next week.

Im really trying to take all of this in stride but a few things have been really pissing me off lately. (I hate to rant in my blog but being pregnant and seeing as how I NEVER bitch in this thing I am entitled..)

1. Stop asking me if I am still pregnant. Obviously I am since you don't see an infant attached to my hip.
2. No you cannot touch my belly.
3. I am sick of people looking at my belly and saying "wow" or "are you going to pop?" or "are you sure its not twins?". Yea, thanks jerks. Im 39 weeks pregnant, it is "wow" because baby is full term. If you do;t know what that looked like, now you do. No Im not going to pop and no its not twins.
4. Don't ask me how Im feeling. Again I'm 39 weeks pregnant, thus you can assume I feel like shit in some way shape or form.
5. Don't tell me "baby will come when she is ready". Im not an idiot guys, baby will come when she is ready. I am just totally done being pregnant. Its super annoying to live every second of every day wondering if each twinge, trickle, or cramp is a contraction or my water breaking.
6. AND finally don't tell me "not to rush things". Im not, and even though I want baby M to be here asap, I can't make her come. Im 39 weeks pregnant, I'm uncomfortable, she is full term, i hate being pregnant at school because its tough to do lots of musical and fancy activities with my students and hopping around a middle school classroom is not what I call fun right now, and let's face it: I am totally jealous of my friends who have already had their babies or are having them in the next few days. When is it my turn? When will baby M come? Will I go into labor on my own or will I end up needing to be induced in the next 14-16 days? Will I need a c-section? All of this is very exciting and very aggravating at the same time.

Well I have no choice but to wait this out and hope baby M makes her appearance sooner rather thn later even though I am pretty sure she will be stubborn and I will end up being induced. I shouldn't get my hopes up and just expect to be late...

Thursday, June 7, 2012

38 weeks. UGH

Baby is almost here! Sort of.

I had my 38 week check up on Tuesday and Baby M and I are still doing perfectly. She seems to be very comfortable in utero and doesn't seem like she will be making her grand entrance soon. My guess was she would come on June 5. No luck. Rhonda and Roberta both think this Saturday. Lets hope so!! I don't know how much more of this I can take, I am NOT a patient person.

Everything is ready for her, we just need a baby!

I asked about induction and my dr said that she would get me on the list when I turn 41 weeks. I will be a miserable witch if I make it that far. BUT in 19-21 days MAXIMUM she will be here! I really hope my doc would be the one doing the induction but I hope even more I go into labor on my own before then!

So far I am having more braxton hicks contractions, especially today but nothing timeable or regular :(

C'mon baby M!! when will you be here?

Nicole Brooks 1.1.81-5.31.12

Tuesday I attended the services for my long time friend Nicole Brooks who suddenly passed away on May 31. I have known her and her entire family since I was born. She was one of the nicest people I have ever known! She was a great mother, daughter, wife, friend, cousin, aunt, and person.

I can't say that this one is easy to swallow but attending the services on Tuesday definitely helped. We got to celebrate the life of a beautiful person. My heart still breaks for her 3 children, especially since they are so young and I know what its like to lose your mother. I do know that Nicole did a great job raising them since she has such a great family that they will grow up with a fantastic support system. Her daughter was one of my beautiful flower girls in my wedding and Nicole was so proud of her. She was perfect!

I have spent the last few days going over lots of the memories I have of Nicole especially when we were little. Our dads would watch the races and we would play all day and Nicole always kept me and Jeff out of trouble. We spent HOURS building various things with a huge k'nex set and played with our barbies and dolls too. We also played on the swing set outside and even dug a huge 3 foot hole in the backyard that Jeff convinced me to jump into. After "loosing my breath" Nicole ran inside to get our dads. She was the voice of reason and the responsible one. One time I wanted to play "zoo" and tipped her brother Ryan's playpen over and acted like he was a caged lion, Nicole again told me I was mean and got her mom to help the little baby out!

She taught me how to put on eyeshadow and how to play dream phone. We also sang (more like screamed along) to a particular Annie Lennox Song... and contemplate if she was a boy or girl... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiYF7pUPuFs&feature=related
We did decide she was a boy and I literally just found out she is a girl as I typed in Andy Lennox in youtube. Good to know... Nicole is definitely laughing about that up in Heaven!

Rest in peace my friend, until we meet again!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Memorial Day 2012

Me and Dan decided to go to Boston for the day!

We started at the Boston Commons...

Saw some little ducky babies...

and duck families...

and MORE duck babies...

and a mean swan...

It was a nice day out!


We also walked past the field of flags which was very moving. Its hard to fathom how many people have dedicated their lives to making this country a free and better place!




After the Commons we headed over to the Harpoon Brewery. We have both wanted to go for a long time so we thought we should do it! (Obvi I didn't drink and Dan got double samples...sneak. He had anterior motives to bringing me along... haha)


36 W 5 D and feeling MASSIVE UGHHHHHHHH!



Mount Washington

Dan and I decided to take another day cation since baby M will be here before we know it! This time we went to Mount Washington and drove on the auto road. We have been to the North Conway area many times, Dan more than me, but never took the time to drive up the mountain.

Not only was it fun but it was also a tad scary! You literally drive up the side of a mountain, with no guardrail, and some serious cliffs on either side. It was awesome!

This is only about 1/8 of the way up!

1/3 of the way there!

Yup, Im crazy. 35 W 5 D pregnant at the top of Mt. Washington!

Dan at the tippy top of a rock pile at the top of the mountain.



Hazy day but still a great view!


The day was perfect, it wasn't too hot and there was a breeze but when we got to the top it was quite hazy. 

This was our last "daycation" until baby M arrives and we were both glad we took this opportunity to get away for the day and spend some quality time with each other before life changes BIG TIME! :)