tomorrow is the big day.

So the title sums it up... baby M will be here tomorrow. Gulp.

I had a great appointment with my OB today. Baby M performed well on his NST and we are both in great health. My GD has all but gone away. I very rarely get high numbers and they are always in check when I eat normal food. I left my insulin at home today, accidentally, and my post breakfast number was only off by 5 points.

I am starting to get nervous about tomorrow. Again, not so much the surgery itself, but the pain afterwards and the recovery. The nurse at the dr's office assured me that they make you comfortable. I know when it comes down to it I will be a nervous disaster tomorrow. Can they give you Valium? Can I ask for that and not sound like a drug seeker? Really though. I got two, yup two, stitches in my finger after cutting it on a bread knife two years ago and almost passed out while they were being put in, AND being taken out. I can handle seeing anything terrible like that done to someone else, but when it comes to medical stuff happening to me, I am a wreck. My dentist even suggested he medicate me before ever getting a filling again. No, not novocaine, but like sedated haha. yea.

My OB reassured me that everything will be fine. She gets there at 8, and said I could come at 8/8:30. She is assisting another doctor on a c section first then its my turn. She will come in to see me first before we even leave labor and delivery. I will check in at the front desk of l&d, get set up in a room with fluids, an anesthesiologist will come in to talk to me, then I will be taken downstairs to the OR. They are getting new c-section rooms on the l&d floor and they aren't done yet so I will be having mine done on the general surgery floor. All it means is that I will have a little elevator ride. After the surgery, we will go back up to labor and delivery where I will recover then will be given my own room. I still have so many questions for her tomorrow though.

My bad is mostly packed but I will double check it tomorrow. I need to just put in toiletries and things I use daily and double check all of baby M's gear. We are also dropping my car off to get fixed before we go to the hospital since I wont be using it for a while. It is on the way and I already made an appointment anyways.

Putting Cailin to bed tonight was a little sad since I won't get to be with her for a few days and its the last time I get to put her to bed as an only child, and its the last time I get to put her to bed for a while since my incision will be healing and listing her into her crib and leaning will be difficult. I know she will be a great big sister but it will be a big adjustment for everyone. We can only hope that baby M is halfway as good a baby as Cailin was. She was perfect!

Well I have lots to do for tomorrow so I suppose I should get going on all that so I can get to bed at a decent hour.